i'm bored

it's almost 1.00 am.n i could not sleep right now.maybe because i just woke up..i watched nora elina since yesterday..then after finishing all those episodes i fell asleep..then when i woke up i realised that it's already night.almost 11.00 pm n  my room is so dark..really scares me..i couldnt hear any noise that i used to hear every night..so sad, i felt like i wanna shout n cry at that time. n i looked at the mirror in my room then i was asking myself..a lot of questions popped into my mind-am i alright? nothing happen to me right??why did i sleep in the dark?pray??Oh My God! i havent prayed yet..then i took the ablution n prayed..after praying i'm talking to myself again..since my BB(my new huge bear) is not here to accompany me. i have to speak to myself, creating another character of myself..yess it sounds crazy but *it shows how bored i am*.definitely!!what should i do now?? i keep scrolling the facebook homepage up n down.no one here to talk with..n enough of watching movies..full of depression.tetttttttttttttttttttt

this blog is mine

This blog is mine where i reveal some pieces of my life..n i dont expect people to follow or read it..if u wanted to, you may do so coz i'm not going to stop anybody doing it..

shopping

huhu..forget the sadness n sorrow of my heart.

these are all the things that i bought for myself here in the United Kingdom. What have i bought so far..let me list them down..

1)DSLR Canon 500D(united kingdom)
2)professional camera bag(korea)
3)Lollipop phone(Hong Kong)
4)Collins Electronic Dictionary(United Kingdom)
5)Clarks Shoes(Birmingham)
6)perfume(Avril lavigne- Birmingham)
7) a Huge Me to you Bear(China-United Kingdom)

all these things are very valuable to me. i really  love all of them n sincerely feel  proud to have them!

i believe

i do not know why..but i think i cant believe it..but i have to believe it.. coz it's what i have to believe in! seriously i feel very sad right now but i dont want to hurt myself again and again..let bygone be bygone..i know that  i'm not deserving that..so, it's better for me to heal myself rather than hoping for nothing that is almost impossible to be mine.dont worry much..life must go on no matter what..so smile please =) motivation for myself!!

kembali

alhamdulillah i have  done with my exam..thank you Allah.. may Allah give da best result for me..really miss blogging. n seem that i dont know what to write here.. oh yup, i'll go back to malaysia on July 6, 2011. Hope that everything will be okay.. so excited! after about a year being in such an alien country i will  finally go back to my homecountry.. such a blessing time. Thanks to the Almighty! another thing  i want to say is that i will make a new blog insyaAllah.. still in the process of creating it..that blog will about cooking as many friends of mine ask me to do that.  not to say that i'm good at cooking..just want to share some of my knowledge about it.. those blog is specially designed for overseas students not those who are studying in the United Kingdom only, but also for those who study in Indonesia, Australia and so on..

sorry

hi guys..so sorry coz i dont have any free time to write since my  final exam is about 1 more month..do pray for my succcess ok..will  write after June 18, 2011~thanks for visiting

Hikmah Kembara

scar on my heart

i dont know why..but, i feel like i wanna cry right now.

o Allah!  please give me strength n guidance~

this is maybe the place that i can  reveal some pieces of  my  life but not ALL...what i can say now is that i feel so sad n sad.

='(

Dadali- Di saat aku mencintaimu

it's all about your mind!

insyaAllah, i will write this entry in Bahasa.

hurmmm... aku kesal dengan sikap sesetengah manusia(bukan semua lar) yang sanggup melepaskan jalan kebaikan yang ada di depan mata. bila peluang duniawi datang semuanya berpusu-pusu menuju ke arahnya.  Sebagai contoh, apabila dicadangkan kita ke tempat-tempat yang menarik terus menggelepar masing-masing nak pergi.(at least wat jugak benda bermanafaat) Malangnya, apabila di ajak berbuat amal  dengan cara menolong saudar-sudara Islam kita tiada pula yang berlumba-lumba nak turun padang. Mulalah memberi pelbagai alasan( assignment x ciap, penatlah dn sebagainya) tetapi, adakah sewaktu kita mengerjakan urusan dunia dengan berjalan sana-sini kita tidak menjadikan alsan penat, assignment x ciap tu untuk tdk pergi berjalan-jalan. itulah kita..bukan orang lain, kadang-kadang diri ini pon ada buat benda yang sama.Masalahnya, kalau betul alasan yang diberikan itu kta betul-betul buat x apalah..tetap, rasanya sma sahaja. kita tetap duduk di bilik dan membuat perkara -perkara lagha. apa salahnya daripada kita membuat perkara yang tdk sepatutnya cuba kita luangkan sedikit masa kita(alah..sikt je..x byk) dengan jalan akhirat. InsyaAllah hidup akan lebih diberkati.insyaAllah Allah akan tolong lagi dalam assignment kita dengan dapat markah yang cemerlang. aamin. bukan nak kata apa...tapi ni based on cerita kakak-kakak senior yang insyaAllah telah banyak membelanjakan masa mereka dengan membantu dan memperjuangkan agama Allah. Mereka kadang-kadang tidak punya masa untuk membuat assignment tetap alhamdulillah berkat usaha mereka berbakti pada agama telah membuahkan hasil melalui assignment mereka..tulah ganjaran Allah maybe x nampak melalui apa yang kita nak tp Allah beri ikut lain. kadang-kadang aku kecewa melihat sahabat-sahabatku, ada yang mengeluh memikirkan kenapalah asyik diri mereka je yang  malang.. astagfirullah..sedarkah mereka Allah sangat sayangkan mereka.sebab itulah allah datangkan ujian buat mereka supaya mereka kembali dan menambahkan keimanan kepadaNya. kalau Allah x sayang dah lama Allah biarkan je kita tersungkur di lorong-lorong hitam. Kita harus bersyukur di atas setiap ujian yang menjelma. aku buat entry ni bukan untuk tunding jari pada sesiapa tetapi sekadar untuk renungan bersama.. aku sedar kekadang aku pon silap. so, sama-samalah kita muhasabah balik diri kita. check balik apa yang kta buat. betulkan niat datang sini. n cuba ambil seberapa banyak peluang kat sini untuk mengenali Islam dengan lebih dalam. kalau kita kat Malaysia( majoriti Islam) kita x pernah kisah pon semua ni sebab kita fkr dah negara Islam watpe nak fikr semua ni. sedangkan di barat mereka sedang sibuk mengejar dan mencari Islam. Sedangkan kita Islam sudah berada ngan kita tapi apa yang kita lakukan?? ingatkah kita pada 1 tanda kiamat yang besar iaitu agama islam akan berkembang di barat suatu masa nanti...so, sama-sama kita fikirkan ye sahabat-sahabat sekalian..

p/s: huhu, this is really bad! i cant write in bahasa very well. it's like spoken Bahasa.. hopefully u can get something from this k..

this minute

this minute i feel so crazy
crazy
crazy
crazy
crazy~

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B.L.A.N.K

pieces of memories

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ukhwah yang terbina persis sekuntum bunga
meski pun kini kita terpisah demi kasih-Nya
namun cebisan kenangan kita
sentiasa bermain di bayangan mata
detik waktu yg berlalu
menjadi memori kau dan aku

sewaktu kita bersama saling setia menimba ilmu
tanpa mengeal erti penat jemu
igatkah kau lagi
kita bersama memijak onak duri
ditanah gersang mengutip semangat suci
kini segalanya tersurat dalam sanubari

bersabarlah dengan ketetentuan-Nya
ada rahmat yg tersembunyi
bertemu berpisah kerana Allah
lumrah kehidupan insan beriman
moga saat nan indah
ku harap berulang lagi

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it's not april fool

From the Day I met you

Three years back

Till this one, right now

I love you forever

I just thought you should know

You mean so much to me

*********

I miss the old days

You fool around me

where you crashed into an accident

Life had almost come to the end

As you cannot walk anymore

And I cried painfully

Cause I didn't want to miss you

*********

Then you promised me to give your heart

Since then I know you are sincere to me

I wish those memories will never reopen

And forever remains in my heart

where we share and we love

Then we cry and we laugh

**********

Whenever you cry over me

or even  getting  really mad at me

I know that I'm always in your heart

And I believe it's true

Now you should  know that

I love you, too!

Happy anniversary.

LOVE NOTE: ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku telah mencintai seorang hambaMu ini. Maka, kau tambahkanlah kekuatan dalam hatiku ya Allah. Moga kecintaanku padanya tidak melebihi kecintaanku kepadaMu, ya Rabb. Moga suatu hari nanti kami dipertemukan kembali..aamin2 ya Rabbal a'lamin..

forgive me, friend

by NURAS


I write this for you
a friend so true

And I tell you this from the bottom of my heart

before it shatters and falls apart

You draw a scar on my heart

to make you see it is very hard

honestly I feel pain deep inside

but I don't know how to describe

I hope you can feel it what

so that it can go away from my heart

friends come and go
after you read this you may say so

Is like a journey of a train

on the half way we may feel the pain

Then we may decide to dispart

but your love is still in my heart 

forgive me for what I did

I hope that this apology can get rid

of the distance we have apart

before our friendship dies of a broken heart.

Many people are under the mistaken notion that they should not share feelings of sadness to their friends because it will bring down his or her moods. And, I am one of those people who feel hurt deep inside my heart  because of my friend but I don't know how to express it. It is maybe because of the solidarity that has grown between us. However, sometimes we need to express the dissatisfactions to our friends even though we may not be able to offer comfort to each other at that particular time but our friendship will become deeper through the process. But, I failed to tell it to my friend. That is why I write this poem.Hopefully, by writing this i can feel better.To my friend, I love you so much, but, please listen to my heart... ='(

leave your comment

since a friend of mine asking for a comment box, so, i change the settings so that she can leave her comments here on my blog..so, whoever wants to leave your comment feel free to do it k...thank you~

istikharah cinta

Bersaksi cinta diatas cinta

Dalam alunan tasbih ku ini

Menerka hati yang tersembunyi

Berteman dimalam sunyi penuh do'a

Sebut nama Mu terukir merdu

Tertulis dalam sajadah cinta

Tetapkan pilihan sebagai teman

Kekal abadi hingga akhir zaman

Istikharah cinta memanggilku

Memohon petunjukmu

satu nama teman setia

Naluriku berkata

Dipenantian luahan rasa

Teguh satu pilihan

Pemenuh separuh nafasku

Dalam mahabbah rindu

diistikharah cinta...

tutorial class::cheezzzy bread

so, today i'm going to show u how to make a cheesy bread..

these are all the things that you need.

first,

onion granules..u can find it at any supermarket ..i just bought it from Tesco.

then, floral buttery..please ensure that it is buttery..bcoz it will make your bread nyummie!!.heheh

cheddar grated..i'm not sure whether you can get it in Malaysia or not..maybe u cn find it in a big supermarket only..but i dont think malaysia does not have this kind of cheddar.. surely it does..

closed- cup mushroom..

and the bread..i like to eat Danish..danish is always in my heart..

 ok, now is the cooking session ..firstly, cut the mushroom into pieces..how are you going to cut it?? up to you..as long as you  cut it okay..hehe =D

next, spread the butter on your bread(like this ok tuan2 dn puan2) hahaha;p

then arrange the mushroom on the buttered bread

full of temptation,isn't??

after that, put the grated cheese on the top 

now, zoom into the pic..cant you see the small granules?? ok2..now put a little bit of it on your bread..it is very important to do it or else your bread will be tasteless...sort of COMPULSORY i would say..

the, put it  into the oven in  about 5-7 minutes

after 5 mins,, jeng3

hmmm..look like pizza right??

no need to go to any pizza's outlet ..u can do it yourself! 

this is for my breakfast..2 slices of cheesy bread

haha..

see..another bad attitude of mine..didnt eat the crust even though i know it gives u  a source of energy...dont nag at me about the importance of eating it..bcoz i will not listen to u..i really didnt like it..that's all.. hahaha=D

p/s::dedicated to mohd khusairy ramli yg buncetttttttt...a.k.a.bro octo ...

he loves cheese very much..

Nina's Quiz Show

she's very cute...lolz~

let's explore~

 it was a boring day..so i took some pics of the sky from my room..

Subhanallah..really beautiful..thanks Allah from giving me da opportunity to see one of Your great creation.

Thank you Allah =)

now, let's see my room..
 huhu~ this is my room. after a few months here, finally i show you my room..hahaha..
this is basically  how da room in  da westwood looks like.it's big but then..

the carpet is very old n dirty too..however i still love westwood because of the heater that keeps me warm during the winter especially.In fact , there are two heaters in my room.so, i am very lucky to have that.

 this is the whole view of my room from the door. a bit messy, isn't?? hahahaha...such a lazy girl i am! kih3..it's okay..this is really who i am ;p

ok, this is the place that i always doing my work..really?? not so many books there..a lot of accessories actually

huhu..let's see what are those accessories..
1- stationeries
2-lip ice
3-perfume
4- hearty chocs
5- sports towel
6-umbrella
7- brooches' box
8- mr messy(bottle)
9- specs

yeah..my favourite cookies in the UK!-millie's cookies

there are a lot of varieties of cookies in the millie's shop but i dont know why..i simply love these two flavours which are ;

1- white choc

2-double choc

hurms..some r still left in my room?? anyone wants it?? cum2..hehe

  yeah!!!!!!! millie's~

If I were a poem

if I were a poem
no, I cant be a poem
Why I cant be a poem?
Because I'm not a poem
I cant really be a poem

A poem, beautifully written
can have humour out of sudden
 The poem can be poetic
 His poem can turn chaotic
Well, maybe it is the poet of the poem's problem, isn' it?


p/s:: this is my very first poem i made when I become one of TESL students....really funny.. i was running out of idea at that time perhaps..hahaha..cant stop laughing when i read it back...